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I’m fine by John B.

I’m fine by John B.

So, OK, I admit it…..occasionally, I like to wear a nice red bloody wound!

See, I was taught by my parents in subtle ways to pretend everything is OK, even though it’s not, and this has been extremely difficult training to break.   Of course, when I do break it, it can lead to a “recovery moment” or new awareness.

I used to think I wasn’t doing it right – recovery, I mean – what with everyone in meetings living lives that were “beyond their wildest dreams,” and all. That’s a pretty big expectation.  And even though I have been sober for a really long while now, and even though I go to meetings on a fairly regular basis, every once in a while I have a bad day.  Oh, yeah, and my life is usually anything but “beyond my wildest dreams,” thank you very much!

But why I don’t actually seek out these growth episodes is beyond me.  Growth usually feels really good when it happens, and isn’t that what I was after OUT THERE?  To feel good, with no DOWNSIDE?  I mean, THAT’S the Holy Grail…..

But I resist, and so I wear the wound around for as long as I can stand it.  And then, just when I can’t do it anymore, I go ahead and take a chance and “reach out” and call my sponsor, or go to a meeting, raise my hand and come clean.  And sometimes a miracle happens.  My life gets better!  And even YOU get better!

I may just try it today, and of course I will keep you posted.

I’ll see ya around!  Hey, you can’t miss me…..!

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